I gave the wrestling business everything that I had---I left nothing on the table. I agonized over every word, every sentence, every paragraph. I became obsessed with making every single show the best that it could be. I didnt sleep at night, I didnt enjoy the quality of life. I went in and out of depression. I changed as a human being. And, for what? At the end of the day what was it for? The people that I worked with over the years didnt appreciate it---they never appreciated it. They took advantage of me and never once cared about my well being. The critics, who had no idea of the work that I was putting in, were not only thankless---but often critical on a personal levelnot a professional level. When all was said and done, all that was left were those who got, and I thank God for that. All I wanted to do was ENTERTAIN. Thats it. If I put a smile on your face every Monday night, that was the pay-off for me. Unfortunately, looking back know, in attempting to put smiles on peoples faces---I left a permanent scar on my own mind.