What Happens When We Die?
8. Floating In Space
Viezenaar, after a dangerous encounter with laughing gas, describes the experience as like stepping away from a screen:
"The moment I passed out it felt like my life was paused at a random frame, like a videogame I had been playing for so long that I completely immersed into it. I remember physically turning away from the videogame screen and looking around me. It seemed like I was floating in space, and with a handful of very blurry, blueish entities hovering next to me. [...] They didn't have any faces or limbs or anything that could distinguish them as living beings, but for some reason I knew they were alive. I realised they were friendly and I was one of those entities, and they welcomed me back "home" from the "trip" that I took in the body that had just passed out back on earth. I remember how silly it seemed how I could have ever been convinced that I was just a human. The entities and I all seemed to know what had happened, cos they had been watching my human life on the screen earlier.[...] I remembered that this was the place where I used to be before I was alive as a human, and that I would return here when I died. It felt extremely peaceful, a bit like coming home to your family after a trip around the world.
Viezenaar then goes on to describe the horrible sensation of coming back to consciousness in their physical body:
"It felt like stepping into an undersized hazmat-suit. I felt my dry mouth, my skin tightly wrapped around a bag of squishy organs. It just felt so uncomfortable. Like as if you're cramped up in a very small, very slow, sluggy and noisy car with smudged windows and you just want to kick the door open to step out and smell the fresh air."