10 Things You Didn't Know About The Big Boss Man

8. Chris Benoit Really Struggled With Traylor's Death

On April 22nd, 2011, Irvin Muchnick posted a portion of Chris Benoit's journals online. One section detailed Benoit's reaction to the untimely death of Ray Traylor in September 2004. It seems that Traylor was one of Benoit's closest friends, alongside Eddie Guerrero. One year later, Guerrero himself would be gone, and just two years after that, Benoit would go out in the worst possible way imaginable. The love that Benoit felt for Traylor was evident in the journals:

I would spend days with him, and every half hour or so, though it seemed like every five minutes, he would say €œChris Benoit, Have I told you I loved you yet.€ And I used to laugh and he would laugh. But by the end of the day, whenever we were done doing whatever we were doing, we would hug I and I would tell him I loved him. I used to laugh when I would hear that from him all day. I used to laugh thinking about it. Now I don't.

In what may be some chilling insights into what would come later in Benoit's life, he also wrote:

I don't remember the first time I met Ray, but that seems to be with a lot of my life. I don't know if its because Ive lost a lot of memories because of bumping, or if I just don't like looking in the rear view mirrors too much. This one thing I hate about myself are these walls I put up around myself sometimes when I feel hurt and everything seems to be oblivious.

Finally, Benoit reflected:

As Nancy and I left the church and watched them put Ray€™s coffin into the hearse. We both waved goodbye one last time and I thanked him in my heart, and thanked God for putting him in my life and said I love you Ray.

The words are touching, yet somewhat chilling.